Give up

I give up.
This is never going to change.
It will never be what it was again.
No there is no more denying it.
No more wasting my time trying to hide it.
It was it is.
Even if I hate it.
I have no choice in it anymore.
I thought I had so much to gain.
But I only seem to lose it.
This is not some small obstacle.
That I can over come in time.
It is a mountain I can never climb.
It is now my only way of life.
So it is what is it.
And I am who I am.
And I just give up.