Who I used to be

As i look in the mirror
I slowly see myself fading
Little by Little
All because i'm slowly losing myself
And trying to be
Who I think you want me to be

I want so desperately for you to notice
So I change myself
Into someone I hope you'd like me to be
I'd do anything just for you to notice me

But I am slowly waking up
And realizing
You will never see me
If I change myself for you

You're so wrapped up in yourself
to even know I'm alive
I'm beginning to realize
that you were just a waste of my time

I thought we were close
That we had something special
But the longer i know you

The more i begin to realize
I never knew the real you
to begin with

I'm beginning to realize
that your cost or just to high
because its not worth losing myself
and who God created me to be
for some five minutes of acceptance
that will fade
and then i'll be empty again

I think its time
that i take a stand for myself
and become the person that i used to be
The person God created me to be